I talk to a lot of people for work, and the amount of people who casually tell me things with the prefix: i’m not racist but… Is quite shocking. Everything after that is always racist, otherwise you wouldn’t have to say it. It actually bothers me a lot, because just because i’m white, they assume that i’m just as racist, or racist enough that i don’t mind. And they think that because their own experience with other people. I’m at a point where i don’t care anymore and tell people that i don’t care, because i’m not an asshole, i think you need to be racist to find that funny.

It’s off putting how often it happens. I’m not a big talker, so i don’t really get involved in long winded conversations with strangers, but every now abd then i find someone is nice enough and talk for a bit, and then i always think: when is he gonna do the racist thing. Just the other day i was talking to a guy in a hardware store, we talked about power tools, which tickled my autistic brain and i started babbling. Suddenly the conversation shifted and we talked about his house renovations. And he said something like: yeah and the drywall guy was some pakistani, but he didn’t got to pay him pakistani wages, which sucked. Wanna see how he ate his lunch? And then he went into a squatting position for some reason, because apparently that’s how the guy ate lunch. He found that hilarious, and i thought to myself: what average reaction did he get from that story? Stupid pakistani and his normal wages. And sits like that? What an asshole.