This week I: had six days of work, responded to two important emails, had a job interview (I got it!), paid an overdue bill, retrieved my debit card from the bank, went to the dr., and filled my rx.
But I really need to choose my topic for my master’s thesis and email my preferred advisor, so, you know, I’m a failure
Also, “It took you five minutes and it sat for 6 months, you asshole”
Damn. What I just said…
FINE. I’ll get high again.
I was about to say that this is why I don’t rely on my brain to reward me but just give myself alcohol as a treat. Stringy ass brain
you could have done more
Aaaaaagh!!! Leave me alone! I got so much done yesterday and all I get is guilt that I went to bed before I was done?!
NO! MORE! ALWAYS MORE!
last night I finished something very stressful for me, but then my anxiety refused to accept the fact I no longer had to stress about it.
So I was up half the night with irrational stress dreams and anxious thoughts.
Why can’t my pride and satisfaction have the stubbornness of my anxiety?!
For future reference, it’s your cortisol levels. When you’re stressed for a long time they build up more and more, which means they take longer to come down
Thank you, I never really understood why that happened and it was pretty frustrating to feel that without having any reason.
Of course! Look into some breathing exercises and maybe poke around a bit into some CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy, not the other one lol… Well maybe the other one if you think it’ll help) theory. Just understanding why your body does stuff can make a huge difference in what it actually does.
Since my therapist taught me about my cortisol levels a while back, it’s become a lot easier for me to identify things like “I’m anxious right now, so my cortisol levels are going up which is going to reduce how elegantly I can perform tasks. I should opt for less flashy movements to cause myself less frustration” and then my anxiety goes down regardless of how I actually change my behavior
When you say less flashy movements are you talking about video games?
Nope! I have a superiority complex, which manifests largely in the way that I do things. I flip water bottles when I pick them up, or spin things around quickly and catch them for example.
However, I’m human and humans are prone to mistakes. Learning to identify when I’m more prone to mistakes than normal and reducing those flashy behaviors has helped me a lot with my anger issues
Thanks
I did CBT a while ago and it wasn’t the solution for me, but maybe the theory will help
The actual practices are neither here nor there. Honestly, I only suggest CBT material because I know you can find knowledge about why your body does things and the less obvious effects those things have on your mental state. You can probably find a lot of the same information in any therapeutic theory, but what’s important is understanding yourself well enough that you can affect those things intentionally as well
in my experience the leftover anxiety buildup will stick around even after the stressor is over. it takes at least a day to clear properly
gotta take time to start unwinding while the adrenaline is still running around or it’s going to hit you all at once
Every damn time.
What…you want a participation-trophy too!?
