I have also had the chance to meet a pre-new china member of the cpc. He was my grandpa actually. Unfortunately he died a couple years ago and the last time I was back in china I didn’t know what a marx was…
I wish you the best of experiences though.
I personally really like to journal but even if you don’t I like to prepare for interview by writing down like what i would answer to the questions. Then in the case of an interview I kinda already know where I want to go so i can focus on making myself more articulate and prose more interesting. Of course you won’t cover everything you will get asked and will still need to impromptu some questions but i find i feel a lot more prepared and that helps with my anxiety.
others have said a lot, but i just wanted to add
I’ve tried talking to a therapist about it but they just suggested that I try to stop identifying as Chinese and start identifying as American.
is ridiculous to the point of satire. It feels like something someone would satirically say rather than unironic advice from a therapist.
but at what cost
Hmm for me a pretty recent 180 i took was on Deng Xiaoping. I was a commie but I really wasn’t super educated on the state of AES(even though i am part of the chinese diaspora) and was always under the impression that it was capitalism. That deng xiaoping turned china capitalist. Probably not really as big of an 180 as some other people here but really learning about china was really inspiring and restored my hope in the world ig. I feel way more patriotic towards china right than amerikkka.
Thinking of possibly doing my master’s in china after my undergrad.
thanks! Another reason to finally get around to reading imperialism i guess. Been meaning to for a while.
Can you expand on this? I haven’t read too much theory so i’m guessing this is something in capital?
banger essay https://ismatu.substack.com/p/girl-go-to-sleep-ft-lessons-from