Yeah after writing this out I thought to myself “well actually is it rly that surprising he’s going into polisci/gov…” 💀💀

I think I’m just mad at my younger self to be honest and bitterly wishing and hoping and praying that he knows that he’s where he’s at partly due to the stupid capacity for forgiveness my younger self had–i chose not to ever report what he did and vehemently defended him whenever authority did interrogate me, I never told his social circles about what he did

Tbh knowing this system I’m prob js delusional in thinking that speaking out would’ve materially changed anything, but that dude still has to live his life knowing that it was the girl who he raped and physically abused to tears who held him whenever he sobbed about killing himself out of guilt, and it was my words “I forgive you” that rang through in all his crises

Actually fml 💀

this post was basically me losing it after hearing the kinds of things boys say about me and seeing not a single one of my guy friends defend me ;__; save me bro

LMAOO noo comrade ilyy and noo im always happy to talk about my journey as an organizer! your words of support mean so much to me :) thank you, comrade!!

sorry comrade ive been incredibly all over the place lately, just super stressed and scared lol

I’ve actually been a political organizer for 2+ years and im a trained cadre of a socialist party :) only youth member in our chapter as well – I know it seems like im a sobbing crying idiot (bc i lowkey do seem that way i cant even blame anyone lol) but when I say I’ve been battling crap out for a long time, I don’t mean just with admin, I mean that I’ve been protesting, leading marches, doing public speaking, encamping with college kids in protest, going to cadre classes, building myself up as a rank and file organizer, hosting forums and educational events~ if anyone is curious, I became a political organizer at 15 (bc fuck Zionism) and I’m now a senior in high school. Surviving my rape made me realize I’m meant for better things than moving through one abusive situation to another, and yeah here I am now

and yeah tbh my reaction last night was just defined by the fact that I have like very severe PTSD with ts i was hyperventilating and trying not to vomit for a while which was purely a trauma response, I’ve gathered myself now and acted in a way I’m pleased with

thank you comrade!

Bc last time they pulled me from class with security officers ;__; I legit cannot make this up, they were harassing me over Palestine and I was like dawg why do I have to listen to this and stayed in class and uh lo and behold they yank me out with a security officer berating me in front of everyone

The fact it’s 4am where I am and I still cannot sleep should speak for itself 😭 I gotta meet with admin in 3 hours 😬 and I can’t fall asleep I’m so stressed lmao

I totally agree that maybe ts not possible for NOW ;__; I need to restrategizd and reorganize

Send help comrades, I’m genuinely losing my life span from the level of stress I’m under 😭

Ah unfortunately I think that would actually get me expelled and kicked out of my home 😭😭 that one MAY be out of my scope of possibilities 😭 but I appreciate your advice comrade!!

What does “a kind of MAD” mean?

And yeah I wish I could’ve actually gotten them nationally humiliated for how they treated me over Palestine (their list of bs included but were not limited to: threatening expulsion, permanent records, filing me for harassment, also pulling me from class with security officers, weaponizing my SA and medical history of suicide, opening administrative investigations on me, harassing my chronically ill mother, trying to mandate me going to a crisis center institution for mental hysteria) but like my area was crazy Zionist until like late 2025 (if you can defend genocide for only so long)

People are mad at admin. Like really mad at admin and this white kid who backstabbed me. I just don’t know how to translate that into movement.

Thank you comrade

My comrades irl have come up with similar solutions, and I agree that these ideas are what’s possible in our scope of reality

Honestly, I’ll have to see how the meeting tomorrow goes before I can decide anything, maybe I’m stupid for seeking advice, it’s not like anyone can magic a perfect solution so I don’t know :(

I’m just scared at this point. They’re probably going to bring up my past SAs. I’m so scared, one of my sexual assaulters left the school. The other left the country. I thought all the problems with them left once they left. I’m just scared at this point, I want feel like something will be all right.

Thank you comrade, much love

Yes comrade, I believe that this figure was estimated with the help of a doctor, professor, and epidemiologists; the statistic devastated me. I also believe the population of Gaza prior to the October 7th resistance was 2.23 million. This is heartbreaking. And I think our comrades know that the actual death toll is even higher. And this horrific genocide was televised to any corner of the world with an internet connection, it happened right before the West We will find justice in our lifetime. Hold strong comrades.