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Cake day: December 2nd, 2025

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  • It started in June and peaked on November 30, when I relapsed and screamed at the staff (I live in a residential treatment program because I had a TBI three years ago). I told them I wanted to be taken to a safe house because I was in danger. On Thanksgiving, I was convinced that my dad paid a hitman to kill me three years ago because he wasn’t as rich as he used to be and he was tired of supporting me financially.

    On Thanksgiving night, my dad was really fucking pissed at me because I was so manic, but the truth is I was fucking overjoyed because he didn’t kill me. (I thought my dad came to my house to finish the job because he’d been stalking my FB, so he knew about the accusations I made)







  • I’ve also had numerous fantasies of poisoning my friends and family with my bipolar meds. Sadly, there are these things called “laws”, so I’ve never even seriously considered doing it.

    The most regularly occurring fantasy involves me poisoning my father with seroquel. That was the first fantasy I got, way back in 2009. I imagined laughing at him and telling him he still sounded manic after being borderline comatose after I duct taped him to a chair and funneled seroquel down his throat.

    I know what you’re thinking…“BRO…you need therapy…” well guess what, there are few things I love more than lying to doctors