Gentlethem

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Cake day: July 13th, 2023

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  • Same here, used to happen when I’d have a big firght with my SO or parent who wouldn’t understand what’s going on and tried to push me into solving the situation rather than give space. But definitely difficulty speaking is an indicator of emotional distress/overwhelm for me and dissociation / freezing follows when the distress worsens. I find writing an easier way of communicating difficult emotions and thoughts and i’ve even thought about learning sign language to help with these situations.














    1. Cold old house with memories about white cats, whipping sticks and aluminium candy wrappers
    2. Burning the old house
    3. Cat is my only friend but it has fleas and I slept on the livingroom floor because mice were making noise inside the roof and I was scared
    4. Alone but books, except that one time when I was napping and uninvited people came over
    5. When the periods came I was never ready and at that moment my childhood ended
    6. Moving away and back again and again, why won’t you just separate?
    7. I got a pair of fancy new shoes but others bullied me and I never wore them again
    8. Finally that shitshow ended and I’m on my own
    9. Years of angry and alternative truths
    10. Years of realization and actual truths
    11. What the hell am I supposed to do now?
    12. Darkness has settled but I can’t and the neighbours are banging doors and it sounds like shooting
    13. Finally something good
    14. And then people and animals die
    15. What the hell am I supposed to do now? Pt. 2