update: am not going, i feel like something bad is going to happen at that protest

sorry comrades im a coward 😔😔😔

same here, everyone i know is fascist or liberal, imperialist The only exception is a small group in my school and my partner, everyone else is blindly trusting everything they hear from the right. It’s soul-crushing

actually i really shoulda planned this better lol

Italian politics is a hellscape, i hate it YwY

China would be much more difficult, including the language, since russian generally has more in common with the languages i already know ><< (my partner knows much more about the moving, for now it’s a very distant possibility), although i’ve researched that China and Vietnam are less outwardly queerphobic than Russia, which would very much be a factor to consider since im trans and my partner is more fem presenting.

I do actually know someone near those parts, they’re Romanian but unfortunately they’re an orthodox christian zealot and proclaim themselves as anarcho-capitalist (they also think china is actually just “nazi germany but worse” because sinophobic talking points. they ought to hav a fuck ton of cognitive dissonance since they are also gay :P), but if i do meet someone else i will tell u ^^ I think china might actually be better for my personal education since imperial schools will ultimately regurgitate imperialist talking points.

Also the romanian guy i know is t a friend of mine i swear he just was in my class YwY

ohhh ic sorry, i had misunderstood and thought you were implying something about my relationship, since it’s not the first time people online have judged me or my partner on the basis of our being together, mb ><

Anyway, on your advice, we were thinking moreso moving to china tbh, sorry again for misunderstanding >< ty for your advice ^^

ooo ic, i havent thought of it that way. I’ll take up your advice then

actually wait a sec, so i write a post about how i fear that my rage towards the oppresive forces that surround me is bleeding through and makes me feel like i might be ruining my relationships, and your response is to speculate on my partner’s political interests & subtly hint that my relationship wont last (with the utilizing of the proposition “assuming this is longterm”, you underhandedly imply that it wont be longterm, else you wouldnt feel the need to specify this detail.)?

I don’t need your judgement, i asked for advice. If you have nothing actually constructive to say, kindly shut up.

yeah, i used to take 100mg, going back to 100mg needs some “easing in” so if i just start taking them again i might worsen everything

i dont have bills to pay yet, so i could enjoy that while i can

omg rlly?? that’s actually friggin awesome, i’ll buy much more fruit then

what does that have to do with the topic at hand though

the main problem is that most of my outlets are in some way self-destructive, so i’ll have to unlearn those

yep :3 they simply took the fascism away by sheer will /j

wdym?

i understand, i hope you eventually manage to get out of the hole too ^^

thank you for the advice! ^^ i definitely need some time for myself

dont feel bad about peeking at my profile, i put it there for the world to see ^^ also, it could be very likely something caused by my neurodivergence and subsequent inability to understand some societal problems or just feeling unheard and oppressed by the masses. I have been having a little difficulties with being kind to myself recently, my partner helps me alot with it because he’s actually an angel and i adore him too much

i dont actively lash out but i worry that ill end up hurting him some day, and it terrifies me.

Also, i didnt think about this as a possible cause of it. thank you ^^

i think that self regulation as purported by the mainstream is ultimately just “let the 1% fuck you over cuz honor and coolness”, and should be called out and those which perpetuate it should have a talking to if they dont know any better, or hanged from their feet if they are purposefully passifying our populace.

I do think actual healthy emotional regulation exists, but the state wont be the one that will teach you about it. (healthy emotional regulation as in actually letting yourself feel shit instead of the whole “turn the other cheek, anger is a sin” bullshit the theocrats and imperialist scum try to convince us with.)