But now I’m lying awake, and I’m stressing so much. I’m really scared they don’t like me. I’m scared it was all pretend for the sake of being polite. I think I was obnoxious at points, and I said a couple of dumb things. I’m scared they saw me as attention seeking, like I was trying to be the most important person in the room. I’m so ashamed. What do I do with myself? I haven’t visited friends in a very long time, so it’s been very long since I’ve had to deal with this feeling

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    I struggle with this as well. I try to remember that I should offer myself the same compassion I have for others. Chances are you weren’t thinking that they were dumb or attention-seeking, and they weren’t thinking that about you. I think it is so awesome that you were able to visit with them!

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      Thank you. It’s so hard to give yourself compassion, isn’t it? It feels like dismissing the issue entirely, and I do think I need to be better

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        @D-ISS-O-CIA-TED@kbin.social YES! Giving yourself compassion and having patience with yourself is really hard, I struggle with that too. I’ve heard people say treat yourself like you treat others, cause I am usually way more understanding of others than I am myself. It’s not as easy as simply thinking that and it becomes reality, but it is helpful for me to remember and come back to.