Found myself in a pretty terrible place mental health wise for a few years. Every day after work was 20-60mg edibles, a bowl or three, and vaping. I did this with some incredibly toxic people.
I’m back on track with my life now and only smoke occasionally. But now when I get high I just fucking panic. I’m talking one single joint and I’m in full blown stoned panic. It’s not eating junk food and laughing at stupid movies any more. It’s being terrified that everyone hates me and that I’m wasting my life and stressing about climate change the increasingly fascist government. I literally cannot relax when I’m high any more.
Is this a thing that happens? How do I go back to a happy high?
Weed amplifies you’re emotions. If you feel happy, you feel more happy. If you feel anxious about things, you feel even more anxious about them.
I think maybe because you’ve worked hard to get yourself better you’re anxious that you might be getting worse by smoking again.
I definitely worry about falling back on getting high nonstop and not being able to get away from my past life
Yeah, I reckon until you can address that concern getting high won’t be enjoyable.