I’ve been languishing in my comfort zone. Continuing to do so will have terrible effects for me. To quote Marx, I “[have] become a monster, a huge mass of flesh and fat, and [am] barely capable of walking any more.” Ever since the pandemic started I’ve become a terminally online antisocial weirdo who barely ever leaves my room, let alone the house.
Of course, in addition to the damage this does to my personal life, it also makes me non - potentially even counter - revolutionary. As someone who wants to be a communist instead of just some internet poisoned middle class dilettante, I don’t know how I can be expected to jeopardize the comfort of my parasitic labor aristocratic class position when I can’t even get out of my comfort zone enough to go outside, eat real food, and do even the barest minimum of light exercise.
Find other people who completely suck, plenty of people on there do.
Quickest way to stop sucking is to play with at least one other person, it forces you to play in time to someone else and teaches you what live music is all about, playing off each other. Also for motivation you will actually have some tangible goals for practice (learn these songs)
The “Find other people who completely suck [and want to play with other people who suck]” is my sticking point here. I understand that I want people near my level and that actually playing with musicians is very helpful (I had a brief period where I could do this and it’s the best I’ve been). The finding them is the part I don’t get.
Hit them up on that app or join a discord for your local area and ask around in it. Let people know your expectations and skill level, there will always be someone out there looking for the exact same thing as you.