because i grew up listening to taylor swift. i was only allowed to listen to christian music and pre approved music and taylor made the cut. i was never a huge fan till high school came around and i was determined to make friends. i listened to as much popular music as I could, the more popular the songs the more i would need to know them to socialize. knowing stuff about taylor swift was an easy way to have something to talk about with many people, because of how many people had an opinion on her. the first best friend i ever had was a huge swiftie so i suddenly i was being forced to listen to all of her albums and to make taylor swift playlist about fictional characters in the books we wrote. it was fun. one of my friends made it her whole personality and was a true stan. she loved taylor because her songs comforted her after her sexual assault. when taylor sued the guy who assaulted her and won it was like… a win for my friend, when taylor talked about her eating disorder it meant a lot to all of us. they were also hardcore gaylors haha, like they thought she was “already out” fucking wild haha. when folklore came out i was blown away and then she did it again with evermore. mature beautiful songs that made me bawl my eyes out. a little after that i started to be a bigger fan and was on gaylor tic tok lol. the songs were only getting gayer! then i lost my old friend group over a falling out. midnights came out is it suuuuuuucked its her worst album hands down and was such a disappointment. also i went down a rabbit hole learning about all the racist, anti semetic, predatory things and just shitty she has done and it really killed the music for me for a bit. oblivious i should assume all rich white women are racist but the suing the black blogger thing was… fucking disgusting.

so thats where im at i still have many fond memories of her music they remind me of both good and bad times and she has more than a few bops. a while ago i decided to separate the art from the artist and simply pirate everything. but then i saw this comm get made and though how fun! i can chat about taylors music with people who arent gonna defend the racist shit shes done and wont be misogynistic in their critiques and its gaylor friendly (i have a lot of thoughts but i digress) . I dont have friend that like her music anymore (I dont have anymore close white friends haha) sadly hexbear is probably not the place for this.

but this is all mostly to clarify my position for @[email protected] because i was too sleepy to type this all up last night.